Today I was honored to be at the birth of a beautiful baby girl. I attended her older brother's birth not that long ago, while I freshly was pregnant with our own baby boy. I have taken a long, happy year away from the birth world of on call and hospitals and many hours away from family and life. It has been a great break, and time that I needed to be with my kids, one of them being in his first year in this world. I felt very strongly about staying home for as long as I did, I think the first years are so important in the attachment of a child and mother, and it guides and eases them into a very natural and confident independence.
Now I feel ready to be back as a birth doula. Of course, I miss my kids when I am away, but I am also so proud of how amazing they do when they are with somebody else. Now that Charlie's old enough to communicate his needs to loving caregivers, I feel confident in whisking away into the night to help another family emerge and birth into this world. It is amazing, how long the umbilical cord truly stays attached, long after it has left your body and your child.
The birth that I was at today was a very easy "toes in the water" kind of birth. Being a repeat client whom I love dearly, and also that she was kind enough to make it a very quick and beautiful home birth made it a fabulous birthing day. I did pack some knitting just in case there was some downtime, but instead she had me running out the door before I could brush my hair!
*Now, I won't normally talk about my families on this blog, as it is a very sacred and private honor that I share with them, but I know that this would not mind me revelling in her birth one bit. *
After picking up my kids and driving home I spent some time thinking about the births of both of my children, and how different and amazing they both were. I can hardly believe how big they are already, when their birth-days are still so fresh in my mind. It makes you want to grab em and hold em and not let them go, because one day, they won't fit so perfectly on your lap, curled in a ball snuggled against your chest. They'll keep on not fitting their shoes and not fitting their pants and not fitting their beds, until one day they are so old that they walk right out of your house and begin lives of their own. One day way, way too soon.

But they will always, always, fit inside your arms.