I love those moments when you feel like you really got it right in a "cool mom" move.
I don't often come across as "cool" with anybody, let alone my kids. I'm pretty socially awkward and I'm fairly strict, and though I'm really open and accepting of a lot of things, I'm also that Mom that doesn't do PG movies, Top 40 or video games. It's simply my personal parenting choices. I'm working on it all.... as my kids seem to be getting older and older before I'm ever really ready for it.
So tonight, being Friday and the end of a long week, we were all feeling the need to shake it up a little. The music was cranked (The Ramones) and the kids were jumping around on the bed and Frankie was asking about this song that she heard, that I know (unfortunately) and asked for me to find it. So onto "YouTube" I go and soon enough we were getting down to the likes of "Call Me Maybe" and some other poppy jams the kids are into these days. PS, Justin Beiber, how old is that kid seriously and what is it about him that people like.
So this song comes on, and maybe some of you know it, I know I did from grocery shopping and elevators and where ever else this crap gets played.. I never knew who it was by, but I do know the words to the chorus and apparently my kids do too. It's kind of a catchy jam.
And so, here's the part, the part that I will remember as one of those "cool mom" memories. Jumping on the bed, doing sweet 360's, the three of us, singing at the top of our lungs:
"Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me - And honestly,
So good, right! We were jamming pretty hard, the kids laughing hysterically in between split jumps and shimmies and god knows what other moves they were possibly mirroring from their mother. I couldn't stop smiling and I started thinking, "Man, my life would suck without these guys."
And that's when I lost it. The cool moment ended because now, instead of cool mom rocking out, yelling out the lyrics like a total star with my band (the kids), I was suddenly, and uncontrollably cry-singing, like really, truly not able to hold it together, voice-wavering "Withouuut Yooouuu" and the kids looked at me like maybe this was a joke and then Nope, nope, Mom is definitely having a moment here and the song ended and it was all quiet except for me sniffling and the kids breathing hard from rocking out and you know what, maybe those Top 40 songs really know what's up after all.
Because it's true.
It would totally suck without them..